I am afraid of her…
I am afraid of falling,
And I am afraid of the standing still.
I am afraid of staying numb forever,
Unmoved and frozen in worn out armor,
And I am afraid of the exposure,
Of catching fire under a blinding sun.
I am afraid the roots of loneliness
Have grown too far-reaching,
Too deep to be torn to the surface,
And I am afraid my love
is a storm tossed ship lost at sea.
I am afraid these broken pieces
Left behind from so many sorrows,
Are too sharp for innocent mortals,
And I am afraid I don’t quite recognize myself
When whole and happy.
I am afraid of all that’s hidden inside me…
The passion, the hate, the wild wind,
The sorrow, the overwhelming joy,
The untapped ocean depth,
And I am afraid it can no longer stay contained.
I am afraid…
And I am choosing to be brave.